Well, compared to my amazing day a few days ago, today I had an incredibly burdensome day where I was so discouraged. I wrote an email to someone pouring my heart out. Here is an excerpt from that with some minor adjustments:
It really DOES make a difference to spend time in God's word and to pray to him. Something basic like that, people just don't get. I just want people I care about to live their life the way that God intended. How amazing that would be. To get their heads and lives out of the cloud. People say they don't know where to turn. I tell them and it just goes in one ear and out the other. They waste their time on things that will fade away. People are talking all about the Oscars and it's such a big deal. But people don't even remember last year's oscar winners, etc. Who CARES? There are people dying every day without even one chance at hope because lazy mediocre people care more about their own plans for living, because Satan the god of lies has led them to believe that just thinking about things they should do for God's kingdom is good enough and not actually going out there and doing it. "Oh i'll support the missionary". But you know what? They're not even doing that. Support is a verb like to be. it's not supported. You gave one offering a year ago? you prayed for 10 minutes last month? How shameful.
Please, do something.
Today I was in a train that jolted to a stop because of a suicide. Everyone inside the train was stuck in the train for about 20 minutes. People were angry because their schedules were disrupted. But what I thought was oh no, a life that has been lost. How bad could life be to choose to end it? And in such a manner? And what are we doing to spread hope? To give a chance at eternal joy? I'm sorry but being sad about it or thinking about it does not help any. We must get on our knees and repent and ask God for his grace and mercy. Go be filled with Jesus and share that with others. Stop being mediocre. Just stop.
sonya, you are so right. we're all filled and busy with things that will not last. thank you for sharing and reminding me what's should be our priority in our lives.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right! I pray you also remember that it is God who saves and not us though. Sometimes we feel guilty or bad that we are not doing enough to help people when we are on the front lines. They do, often, let our words about God just go through one ear and out the other or so we think. You would be surprised how many of my friends remembered things I said at the beginning of our friendship about God that I don't even remember saying hahaha
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel. It is so easy to get discouraged by such shallowness, but really that is what you are there for. To help them come out to deeper waters. It is scary for them, but some do move. Some more slowly than others and sometimes they go running back, but all in all we always look to what God has made us a steward of and nothing more and nothing less. He asks us to go and share not to save. We can't save them, but God can and that is why He has us pray for the lost. I think you know all this though. hehehe
All this to say...don't be discouraged friend. Some days God blesses us with the ability to see more like He does and that isn't always an easy thing. I'm praying for you and your heart. May you rest satisfied in the steadfast love of God who wants Japan to come to Him more than we can know in full, here at least. I pray that you see this opportunity to see the need for Japan to come to Christ as more of a blessing because trust me it doesn't necessarily exist every day. May it continue to spur you on to share Christ, pray for the lost and encourage others to do the same. LOVE YOU TOMODACHI!!